Each time I prepare for an event, I am always petrified of finishing last. As a child, I did not participate in any sports. In P.E., I was always the last person to complete a track course, kick and hit the ball at short distances, and the first one out of the dodgeball inner circle. Because of my lack of athletcism, I never received an intrinsic award for my fitness efforts.
Many years later, I am still haunted of being the final person completing a course. I cannot over come this fear despite earning many cycling and triathlon awards. If anybody can help me overcome my childhood obstacle, your assistance would be greatly appreciated.